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Hilary :)
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I am a nineteen year old female. I live in Canada. Drawing has been my hobby since a very young age, as well as writing. I am a dreamer.

I first started deviantart to better myself at art, and admire art of others. Art is not something that should have limitations. It should be the output of the inner most thoughts and feelings of the creator through their own eyes. Art can be inspired by others, but should never be stolen.

I wanted to die. I had for a long time. Was it fair for children to grow up hating themselves? No. Had I grown up in such an environment? You better bet your life on that one! From the age of seven years old I had wanted to die. I craved it so desperately. Crying myself to sleep, hoping, praying the next day I would not awaken. What had led to this? Crazy abusive mother? Check yes to that one Juliet. Clinical depression? No hesitation here. Self-abusing role models? Stroke another tally in her wrist for every time I said I wanted to be just like her. Caught in the middle of a hate fueled divorce? Sign here, here, and here. What kept me from doing it? Scared? Till I was about ten years old. Raising two baby brothers? It stunk but someone had to change their diapers. What saved me from my bloody fate though? Growing up fast enough to realize the world revolves around the most horrible of people. Realizing from a young age I was sick. Knowing that one day it could get better. Finding out if you waited long enough that you did have some ups that made the downs bearable. Eventually

to love someone, someone who loved me. Do I hate myself now? More often than I'll admit. Why? Well, I am bipolar for one. Do I accept it? Sure thing! Am I okay? I can pretend to be most of the time. Will I ever get the proper help I need? I don't know..... Am I going to feel guilty for writing this? Most certainly! Should I? Again I don't know...

  • Listening to: some very sentimental music
  • Drinking: alchol

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Iblue-Kitzune Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2014  Student General Artist
Thanks for the fave :)
UndeadGhostGirlXD Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2014  Hobbyist
no prob :p
CinnamonSolange Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Thank you for the watch! :la:
UndeadGhostGirlXD Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2014  Hobbyist
no problem :)
AnarchyxPerfection Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2014
Thank you for the fave.^^
Also have a happy Valentine's day.
UndeadGhostGirlXD Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2014  Hobbyist
no problem, and happy valentines day to you too :)
AnarchyxPerfection Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2014
Thank you.^^
katnappe-gurl Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fav! :D
PiruuPi Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Student Digital Artist
thank you for the watch~!
NikolettaK Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Hobbyist
Hey, thanks for the watch and the faves!!! Also nice username :D
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